busy goodbyes.

only a few days left now. keeping busy... ...and packing up the last few this-es and thats.

the yo-yos above (with hundreds of their friends that haven't been made yet) will probably be made into a huge curtain or wall-hanging, methinks. easy, mindless hand-sewing. i love the idea of hundreds of things repeating like that, and the idea that each one was fashioned by hand into a whole. (conscious, careful, intentional) handmade is love.

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i want to take the time to say goodbye to everyone i met here in new york (if you happen to be reading). i met so many wonderful people here...i had such a crazy time here, school took up so much of my time. i am ridiculously happy that i even had the chance to even live here. living in new york city was my lifelong dream. when i first got here, i gushed, "i feel like i was meant to be here my whole life." living here was the first time i EVER felt at home. this is where my soul feels most at ease. this creative place, so open to anything and anyone, so diverse.

i'm finally done with school, and whoosh, i'm leaving. i love you, new york. i feel like we barely had the time to get to know one another, and just as i was getting to know you on a deeper level, away i go.

thank you to all of you, teachers, colleagues, fellow students at parsons, friends...thank you for being in my life. please keep in touch, and visit me on the left coast if you like.

suffice it to say, i'm ridiculously sad about leaving. i'm actually trying to hold back tears now; i've been pushing them off for weeks in straight up denial. i've been trying to put myself mentally in san francisco already in order to not be upset at the thought of leaving.

it occurs to me that my leaving new york is like a breakup or death...i have been (privately) going through all the stages of grief.

anyhow...

here's hoping my experiences in san francisco will be as amazing as my experiences in new york have been. i'm committed to making the most of the city by the bay, and of myself once i'm finally there.

life goes on.

told you so.

from nylon magazine dot com:

see, i'm not the only one who's convinced that acid wash just may be back... :)

besides pondering the return of acid wash (TOLD YOU!), i've been doing some thinking about other old things that be due for a resurgence:

-shoe clips -clip-on earrings -grandma shoes -leotards -jumpsuits -overalls -circle skirts -rompers -bonnets -berets -suspenders

yes, some are already coming around again...

tell me: what do YOU think is poised for a comeback, or something that is currently flying under the radar and should or could come back that hasn't already done so?

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and a random addendum:

pete and i saw alison kelly of project runway 3 walking down prince street near broadway, heading west earlier this afternoon.

many disagree with me, but personally, i really liked her. i felt she had amazing personal style and was, in my somewhat (?) educated opinion, shafted. the whole show is going to hell in a drama-filled handbasket. boo on bravo for making the show kinda suck. they better not oust michael now, damn it. i wish i could say i won't watch anymore, but ugh, you know i will. :P

anyway, it was random, interesting.

damn, i'm going to miss living in NYC. :(

thirty one.

today i am 31. thank you mom and dad for bringing me into the world.

30 has been a good year, generally.

-i learned quite a bit. the last two semesters of school at parsons fell within my 30th year. i want to continue to keep learning. it keeps my brain excited. -i graduated, for the third time (i've now got one AA, one AAS, and one BA under my belt). all three times, with honors. -i saw myself get published on a national scale, writing and telling the world about things i love. the first time was with an original crochet pattern in debbie stoller's new crochet book, stitch and bitch crochet: the happy hooker, and the second was an article about thrift shopping for the premiere issue of the new craft mag, adorn. -started wardrobe_remix on flickr. it's small and still relatively unknown but it's growing. i still can't even believe that people are interested and participate! -i improved my knitting and crochet skills, started designing my own sweaters and knitwear more seriously, kept up with my drawing (have even learned to love it) and draw almost everyday.

this year will bring a lot of changes, and the future is a big question mark. the future and all of it's unknowns make me scared, and excited at once. but i can handle it.

i hope to:

-have a smooth relocation to san francisco at the end of this month (exactly 3 weeks away!) -get in shape! keep walking everywhere. get a bike. i've wanted once since before i even moved to NYC but never got around to getting one. lose some weight. be firm. be healthy. -learn to live with less. -find employment that utilizes my skills, talents, background, interests and intelligence. -learn more about patternmaking, draping, and the like. -knit more. design more knitwear. see where that leads me. -explore some more ideas i have concerning street fashion + the web. -take some business courses. -stay creative.

may the rest of my 30s bring:

-one child. -perhaps my own small business? a small line of my own designs? a bricks and mortar store? -a master's degree, perhaps? maybe an MFA in fiber art. -more travel. -a permanent home. -a marriage that continues to be fulfilling, fun and flirtatious. -more friends.